I didn’t intend for one of my first entries to be so dark, but here it is.<\/p>\n
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I’m in full self hate mode.<\/p>\n
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I sat down and wrote a list of all the things I\u00a0 want to accomplish on a daily or weekly basis. I wanted to try and plan it out and organize. Even if I don’t always follow a schedule. I like having it to give me direction if I can’t think of what I should be doing.<\/p>\n
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It overwhelmed me.<\/p>\n
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I went to the college website to see if I could do anything… anything to figure out what my course of action would be. Counseling is only for students. I have to apply and be accepted. It was like having an entire ton of bricks dropped right on my head.<\/p>\n
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I can’t do it.<\/p>\n
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I won’t go to school. I won’t do anything.<\/p>\n
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I think I should just die.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I didn’t intend for one of my first entries to be so dark, but here it is. I’m in full self hate mode. I sat down and wrote a list of all the things I\u00a0 want to accomplish on a daily or weekly basis. I wanted to try and plan it out and… <\/p>\n