Low Energy Blues

Some days it feels like there is literally a hand pushing me down. It’s hard to move, to wake up, to motivate myself to do the normal things that I know need to be done. I like to call myself simply “lazy”… but I know inside of myself that it’s more complicated than that. It’s…

Mind Rambles

I sort of want summer to end. I feel untethered and as if I’m floating around with no guidance, no point, no structure. I tell myself “It’s summer, enjoy it” and so I do, spending all my time listening to my children play and staring at a screen and everything else just crumbling around me…

It’s a new day… to hate myself

I didn’t intend for one of my first entries to be so dark, but here it is.   I’m in full self hate mode.   I sat down and wrote a list of all the things I  want to accomplish on a daily or weekly basis. I wanted to try and plan it out and…

And so it begins

I’m actually sort of afraid to post about depression, feeling suicidal, hating myself.   But I have to get it out somewhere.